Up and Down

Up, down, up, down...
happy, sad, happy, sad...
in control, out of control...
black, white...
hot, cold...
I'm like a leaf in the fall... I became unattatched from my tree and now im floating
in a never ending whilling falling rollercoaster....
Rise, fall, rise, fall, rest... rise, fall, rise. fall...
Can I just stay the same for a little while?
I hate changing all the time...
Why can't I just be normal...
Why can't I just let things go...
Why...
I don't know why and I guess I never will...